[feeling | sleepy]
[song | Jocelyn Enriquez - Kailanman]
[thinking | give me just a moment and i'll be just fine]

well i made a new xanga.. its pretty cute i did it all by myself.. its not done yet.. but its comming along nicely.. i'm going to be using that one for now on.. but u can still check out this one.. maybe once and a while i MIGHT use this one.. but yeah here's the link cillypie it well i'm out now.. have a lovely day byeee

kailanman ikaw lamang ang aking mahal

[feeling | burnt out(here's to a crazy weekend)]
[song | the all american rejects - swing swing=]
[thinking | My heart got broken twice by two][diffferent people all in the  s a m e  weekend]

[friday]well let me tell u about my weekend.. friday in school.. i got into a fight with mike.. i think we fixed it.. and then after school we got into a fight.. and we broke up.. but then we got back together.. and then we were fine.. so i was planning on going to the dance that night.. so i go get twisted at niqui's..with like meg, niqui, nicole, ilia, chris p, steve, and russell.. the dance was fun.. i really wanted mike to go.. but no he didnt come.. i met him outside.. and he couldn't even say hi to me.. so yeah it kind of made me mad.. so i was like watever... and i did some stupid shit and said some stupid shit..

[edit] i feel sooo dumb for saying and doing all that shit.. i regret it so badly.. i shouldn't have done and said all those things.. i wish we didnt have to end it on such a bad note ya know?

[back to the blog] so then i met up with kerri and meagan on quackenbush..and we drove around for a while.. and i fought on the phone with mike some more.. (god i wish i can just change it all now).. i went home.. and like passed out..

[saturday] woke up.. called mike.. and he acted like an asshole so i got off the phone with him.. meagan called him on 3way with me.. and i was being silent.. and he basically said he didnt care about me.. so i called him back and told him that its over between us.. =(.. yeah i deno wat to do now.. meagan passed by.. then tj and justin came over for a bit.. and i talked to them for an hour about mike and watever.. they made me feel alot better.. then later i went over meagan's.. then went home and got ready to go to skowski's party.. i was kind of scared to go.. cuz i thought i would be upset.. but i ended up going anyways.. and guess what I HAD SO MUCH FUN!.. i was sooo fucked up.. and i liked it.. yo and some people there like jay and kyle made me feel alot better.. about the whole mike situation.. hehe they made me laugh.. something weird happened at the party.. its kinda vauge in my memory.. like monica called me over or something.. and i deno.. said something about talking.. and i deno.. i was kind of confused.. but i deno watever.. i got BK.. with niqui chris and andrew.. then went back to the party.. then i went home..

[sunday] woke up.. called meagan.. went to eat blimpie's.. chilled around for a bit.. i went back to my house.. and i got ready to go out.. meagan picked me up and we went to john's work.. then we went to john's house.. then to wendy's then back to john's then to joey's.. i drank a shot of 151.. and it was like 5:30 in the afternoon.. haha oh shit.. and i did something to get more fucked up.. so i was like oh shittt.. then we chilled there for a while with joey, danny, john, mike h, mike s, and timmy.. so yeah.. then at around 8:50.. we left and went to this kid petro's house.. and on the way we did some shit some more.. man i was sooooo fucked up... (i have a new name for joey he is my snuggles) and oh shit a cat followed us the whole way from joey's to petro's.. it was nuts.. and it stayed outside of petro's.. and we kept hearing it MEOW.. then we did more shit again.. god damn... we were like goneee.. then me tom y, and john and meagan went back to john's.. and slept for a bit.. then john dropped me and meagan off somewhere.. and we chilled there for like an hour.. then i got home at like 1 something.. and meagan slept over

as for today.. i dont know wat im doing.. =P

oh and about the broken hearts thing.. this is to someone: im not an idiot.. i dont know who u are trying to lie to.. or play.. but its deffinatly NOT going to be me.. so think again before you try that bullshit with me..

cecile is out

[feeling | like shit]
[song | SWV - Weak]
[thinking | all i wanted was a simple kind of life]

i haven't updated in a while.. my xanga looks like shit.. will erased like some of the codes.. but watever i dont care much.. i deno wat i have been up to lately.. just same ol'..chilling with meagan and niqui and stuff.. today i did alot.. i went to meagan's.. then to minit mart.. then to wendy's to meet up with john.. then to mike murray's.. and then to gerson's house.. and i chilled there for a while.. and richie was there too.. haha me and gerson were in "the hut".. haha he was making me crack up like crazy.. i was beasting it.. then i went back to meagan's house.. watched the craft and drank hot cocoa.. and then i went home at like 10.. it was okay.. tomorrow is the jr. barn dance.. i hope its fun.. but if u know me.. u know i love dancing.. and i haven't like danced in soo long.. i soo can't wait =)

on a suckier note -|-.. im so use to chilling with mike everyday.. i know i shouldn't be getting mad.. cuz its only been a couple days.. but i cant stand not chilling with him.. and i feel like he has been being a jerk.. like he cant see that im mad or upset.. and if i get mad.. he doens't even try.. he won't even call me back.. maybe im just being paranoid.. but i deno.. if he likes me so much.. why won't he fucking show it?.. ugh..

i talked to niqui about all this a lil bit ago.. she made me feel better.. and im going to take her advice.. im not gunna say it now.. but yeah.. i will tell u wat happens later.. im out for now..

cecile flew away